Meghann’s Story

Life isn’t about being “fat” or “skinny”, it’s about being comfortable in your on skin. It’s all about what’s going on between each ear. This is Meghann’s story and how she realized that being “skinny” and “living” off of 700 calories a day wasn’t actually Life. 

-Kristy

When I sat down to right this blog post for Kristy I was really focused at first on how to tell my story without making myself sound pathetic. Then I realized that much of what has happened as a result of my decisions is kind of pathetic. So be it. It is my story.

I married when I was 20. The day I walked down the aisle my dad said to me before we walked down the aisle you don’t have to do this and I said I know Dad and I bawled all the way down the aisle because I didn’t want to do it. I was so afraid to disappoint people- this became a running theme for my 20’s.

I was married for 10 years to a good man. We had three beautiful kids together but I wasn’t happy and in the end I don’t think either of us was. There were a lot of mistakes on my part and the experience of divorce took a toll on my family that was unrelenting for years to come. I have spent many years trying to reconcile the guilt I feel for how the divorce impacted the three people that I love the most my children. Nothing could ever take that scar from them and I constantly worry that the pain will follow them forever into their adult lives where they may become unable to have a happy successful relationship. This is my why- it is critical that I give them the best Mom I can be.

It was then that I found out that although I couldn’t control my kids’ feelings, my feelings, the stress of covering all the costs alone, and my future what I could control was my weight. I felt so small and I developed a mindset that my outside should match my inside. It was then that I lost 15 pounds of muscle and became a shell of my former self. People at work started to ask if I was sick, family members worried that I was on drugs and my kids even would wrap their arms all the way around me and tell me I was way to small.

When I first met Kristy I told her how I was proud of my ability to live on under 1000 calories a day. I told her about my extensive Insanity/ cardio workouts and how I was so very proud of my ability to be 5’9 128 pounds. She looked at me with a smile and support and provided me with a lifting/eating plan for 30 days.

The first month with her I struggled to eat the food that she told me to eat. It was a complete change of mindset for me. I literally was living on two meals a day before I met her. Now I eat 5-6 times a day with reminders from my body that actually recognizes hunger again.

I am proud to say that I stuck with it and trusted her advice. With her advice I have gained 8 necessary pounds. That 8 pounds means  normal menstrual cycles and no more foggy brain. I now have a strong muscular body.

Most importantly and I cannot stress this enough- My outside matches my inside in a way that I am proud of.  I am connecting with my children in ways that I wasn’t able to when I was surviving on 700 calories a day. I am seeing the little moments in the day that I know I was missing before when I was foggy and grumpy from lack of food. I know that this change that I have made in my life thanks to Kristy’s guidance will allow my children to have a healthy relationship with food and exercise. My goal is that the Mom I bring them every day is the strong, loving, funny and smart Mom they deserve.

 

Client Feature: Casey. The Come Back Kid!

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‘WON’ Year in Review
I began working with Kristy WON year ago. I use the word ‘won’ because I feel like I did win! All the frustrating times I’ve had with the wrong diet, fad diets, too much cardio, not lifting heavy enough and on and on were solved by working with Kristy.
Summer was quickly approaching when I started my first month. I’ve learned in the past year that this is definitely a motivator for me, as it is for many people. I am very disciplined when I put my mind to it, so in the first 4 months I lost 21 pounds and 6% body fat. It took me another 2 months to lose the last 2-3% body fat to reach my ultimate goal, but my weight only went down 1 pound. I was absolutely okay with this because my weight hadn’t been that low in years! I learned that weight doesn’t always matter. It’s about your overall body composition and how you personally want to look and feel. To be honest, I felt fantastic after I dropped the first 9 pounds then another 6. I spent the summer feeling like a million bucks, and I hadn’t hit my ultimate goal yet. Kristy reminds me of this when I get upset about gaining weight. 🙂
Throughout the fall, I maintained this size, and then….Christmas, winter, winter vacation, cold weather, comfy sweaters…and weight gain. I told myself, I’m not eating THAT bad, or a little extra of this won’t hurt. As it turns out, a little extra peanut butter and epic cheat meals add up to 8 pounds for me. It took a while for me to process the WHY, but I finally did that and moved on. WHY? I like peanut butter. No. I love peanut butter. I kept sneaking in a little extra here and there and it added up. My cheat meal for the week became huge meals and dessert. While I do think that an EPIC cheat meal is okay once in a while, mine became epic every week. My cardio became basically taking a nap a couple times a week on the arc trainer.
In March, I said, alright this is enough. Kristy did all my numbers and I refocused. She remeasured me a month later and NOTHING HAD CHANGED. WTF. So, I told her I didn’t understand why, and like the amazing coach she is, she said, it’s okay, keep going. I left that day and started to think…yup, guess who had still been adding that extra little bit of peanut butter? ME. Here’s the reality…8 pounds to many people doesn’t sound like a big deal, and really, I was perfectly healthy and looked fine. However, that is not what I wanted. I knew what I wanted and how I wanted to feel. It’s all personal preference. I wanted to be back to how I felt last summer. I owned my behavior that was keeping me from my goals. NOW I was ready to focus. One month later, I was down 4 pounds and 3% body fat. The next month, another 5 pounds and another 1% body fat. My WHY clicked. If I want to be at a certain point, I figured out how to do it, and now I am down 22 pounds in a year. THANK YOU, KRISTY for always believing in me and asking that question I hate: WHY?!
Do I think I’ll repeat winter weight gain again this year? Yup, probably. I like Christmas cookies and pizza…oh and peanut butter in case I forgot to mention that before, but now I know how to get over it faster! Everything in life has ups and downs. Just remember you have the tools to push forward even in those frustrating times. I’ll reread this soon and take my own damn advice! Haha!
To wrap it up, I’ll leave you with these three things: 1. Kristy is a Wonder Woman who can provide you with the tools you need to become your own Wonder Woman (or man)! 2. Even when you are super frustrated always keep saying – YES I CAN! And you will. 3. Put shredded zucchini in your oatmeal because it’s delicious! 🙂